YEAH!!! MANDU! MANDU

until the end of this year i'll be totally busy.... i just got back from sarawak...
i have done my presentation and submit all forms and report... and now it turn for me to take my license..... hope i pass it with brilliant color.... hehehhe.....
i hope i can finish my story..... but, i guess it will take time... maybe when i have my own laptop or pc... maybe by then i can continue my story...
today , i'll go to kelantan... where i'll do my lisence.... grandma can't wait for me... i just got back on 7 nov... and now is 9 nov, i already have to go there.... plus, i also excited to go there...
by 19 nov i'll be transit back to kl for my brother wedding... then on 24 i'll go back to kelantan again, continue my lesson, then on 19 december i'll come back to kl again, for my sister and my brother wedding... fuh... lots of work to be done... i must get my license by the end of this year.... yeah......!!!!!! I mUsT!!!! GaMbAtE ne.......!!!!

now, i'm at my brother house.... waiting for my bus on 9.30 pm. Uncle sam will send me to the Hentian Putra bus station....

ow... by the way... muadz call me 'mama cha' now.... huhuhu.... like it....

da...jane... bye.....

In My Mind!!!!

yesterday i'm suppose i have to write in this blog, but, i have something else to do....
i have this kind of things happen in my mind that i cannot really explain.... it happen slowly and then it develops into a big picture... its like a scene pass by another scene.... and from there it develops into a story... it is quite insane at a time when i thing of it.... but, maybe this the time to make a change... maybe the impossible can be possible if we try, right? So, however, i have start type it... but then i stop... coz i'm very tired... 4 hours i have been typing from 12 til 4.30 a.m.... hahhaa.... can u imagine... typing the impossible for 4 5 hours without stoping...??? typing as if it is really happen in my life... in real life....

Dhabitah Tag Me!

Question 1: What were you doing 5 years ago?
Answer : If i'm not mistaken.... on 2003 is the start of my Hell World.......... ok, i'm in form 3, i'm facing PMR by that time... but.... i'm not studying..... instead i'm doing something else..... since now is Oct 2008, so i bet on Oct 2003..... i'm loafing and enjoying my Hell World with my friends.....!!!!! that's the truth....!!!!

Question 2: What are the 5 things on your to-do list today?
Answer :
1. Finish my report
2. Things to buy list
3. Prepare breakfast for dad
4. Clean the house
5. Prepare for my transfer to ancak's house

Question 3: What are the 5 snacks that you enjoy?
Answer : Okey..... truly i'm a health and food cautious person.... so basically i don't eat any junk food or snacks that i feel not good for my body......so here we go.....
1. Selected Cadbury chocolate....(maybe once in a month)
2. Pecal (vegetables that being boil for a while)
3. Fruits.....(a lot of it)
4. Yogurt.....( no added flavour)
5. Maggi asam laksa........ (also once in a month.... or when i think of it.... which is not everyday, but added with vegetables, eggs, meats, etc...)

Question 4: What are the 5 things that you would do if you were a billionaire?
Answer : we only can dream for the impossible..... so if the impossible become possible.... so this is my answer..........
1. Built a house for us Kyrez
2. Go for umrah and hajj
3. Built a house for dad
4. Go travel with my lovely husband......when i have one....hahha..
5. Truly i'm fanatic with Japan.... so i wanna built a house in Japan and meet with selected Japanese people (Gackt, Kame)

Question 5: What are the 5 jobs you've had?
Answer : Not work but studying but, done my practical... can it be count?
1. Education officer...(practical only)
2. Student.... it is the hardest job.....!
3. Waitress and chef in a restaurant......
4. PLKN....... don't even ask about it......
5. Decent daughter...........don't say anything....

OK...finally the 5 lucky people that hopefully will continue this tag:
Answer : em...... still new in this blog stuff..... so...,
1. Iman Elora
2. Viviana Vox
3. Erika Sofea
4. Rya Sophylea
5. Akira

melor here i come

today is the day me, abib, olid and ancak travel back to kuantan.....which is olid home..... on tuesday is the day that we estimated that we will go back to Melor...... dad, umi and amak have alread gone to pening this afternoon......

so, Melor....... Here I Come..... !!!!!

Sedey nyer.... Abis dah?

em..... feel like it just yesterday....... argh.... i have done my practical.... now i don't have to go there anymore.... but, why i feel very empty??? all my friend celebrates it.... but why don't i....

as for my memories with all the staff i have work with.... i got some of their picture taken on the last day.... the day before, ma give us souvenirs as a thank you for being with education department.... ma also give us special card... but... i will open it on the first raye....... some kind of surprise for me.... *wink*...

it is a big shock for all of us..... ma resign.... n me finish my practical.... both at the same day.... the date 27 september 2008 is a history for us..... i though she will be there till next month.... major shock to pa, obviously... who will be alone after nina finish her practical....

Ilia will be in few weeks before nina finish... and she have to learn extremely fast in order to catch up with education department works.. if not... the office will be up side down......Good luck to you ilia....

Now i just have to done my report.... present it and go for my last semester of diploma....

GOOD LUCK TO ME........!!!

HAppy Bidday Habib!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HABIB

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LITTLE BROTHER!!!!

wish you all the best for your tests!!!!

Specially for you, from:

-UR SIS-

FINAL DECISION!!!

So, after a long period of time full of confusion and unknowing.... finally, i have clear all the mess in my mind.

I have been in a deep depression for this ultimate decision. My brother keep saying i should go with dad,but as usual, i will fight back.. i argue with him in the phone saying i'm not going there..(while,actually, i'm saying in this blog that i'll follow him)...hahaha.... the mouth fight turn to be... me keep all i wanted to say and just shut my mouth... not a single word.... and eventually my tears drops... DEPRESSION!!!!

Exactly the next day.... i have to go to his house cause, dad cannot take me home....so, when i arrived there... WOW! what a BIG SURPRISE...... kak long is home.... and why i'm not surprise when she said "we just talk bout you just now....." and there goes the same thing...... forcing me follow him n pity dad, no one want to follow him...bla...bla...bla......thank GOD i've my recorder......so, i don't actaully listen to them.... i just heard them.... but eventually i stuck in my head also....... so what?? JUST LET IT BE THAT WAY....

So, it turn up that i don't have to say what i feel... cause what i feel doesn't important for them... it would be the best for me to shut my mouth, right???

Dad said it is ok for not following him.... but, it take me few days to make my decision....... and because of my heart said that she want to be with people who can make me happy and smile.... so i change my mind and go to melor for this year raye.....!!!!(^_^).....

This would be a good/bad memory......... so be it.... don't care don't mind...... no more depression....

Recently i feel like my body does not as usual.... i kept feeling like i loss my breath, like there is not enough air, plus, dizziness......maybe because of my hemoglobin level is low... but.... few days before and today i feel great pain below my stomach... my friend said that it might be appendic... but.... that impossible... well, i know what i ate... and my diet is really strange but, for sure not appendic...because i really REALLY really cautious about what i eat and drink....although i doesn't really like supplement....but, for sure i take enough nutrients needed for my body through food....

Owh well.... it is very late now.....

-CoNfUSE-

So, please tell me.... what should i do?
Right now.... all i can think is... 50/50....for me melor equal to "mama", and penang equal to "umi"..... the truth.... i will chose mama of course.......i wanna go to melor, but, at the same time, i dont wanna make him broken even more... i know i'm not the best daughter... even yet,... the worst daughter he have ever had!!! Doesn't have to denied it... and don't even try to make me feel better, cause i know who am i... and truly to change it is not easy... maybe people say he/she need something that can boost his/her enthusiasm to change... then, by then he/she will change.... Right now, i really don't know what to do.... if i go with them, then i'll be happy (maybe/maybe not), but, he will be sad....at the other side, if i go with him... them i'll be feeling like it's not fair to me and all....PLUS, i'm not really into the other side....(if u know what i mean...they don't even care about us...so why should i???) PLUSSS, i know if i go there, i will be doing thing that they dont even like... i know it would be only 3 days.... but for me 3 days of sacrifice and 3 days of happiness.... i think it would be better 3 days of sacrifice....

i know it would break all of their heart... but what can i do... V is correct.... if they cannot understand what you feel, i guess better we just kept it inside... PLUS, somehow i know this would be mama decision also....

till now, i still remember me n mama cooking... she cook the dishes, meanwhile i help her and i cook the vegetables.... a lot of vegetables... i remember... i will follow her wherever she go...

Waking up i see that everything is ok
the first time in my life and it's so great
slowing down i look around and i'm so amazed
i think about the little thing that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling
this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it would stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i will hold on to it don't you let it pass you by....
i found a place so safe not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere...

i also still remember the time before she go away, far from me...
i remember how i trying very hard not to accept that she have leave me forever.....

The days feel like years when i'm alone when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie is made up on your side
when you walk away i count the step that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?

When you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
the word i need to hear that always get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you.....


So, basically, YES, i haven't leave her... n i dont think i will....cause she mean a lot to me....
i know it would be very hard to just have 3 days of boredom there...when it suppose to be 3 days of joy with family....
i just dont understand both of them....actually i dont understand her!!! what does she put first and last?? and him also???? dont say u r happy when we all are sad???
yes u can't make everyone happy at the same time.... so why dont u try find an alternative for it??? we have give one of it...... why don't you even try to ask them??? and draw to conclusion easily???? you only think of yourself...... and he only think of her.... he does not think of us.... maybe you do think of us... but not totally....

i wanna ask which one is more important?? going to penang cause they does not relatively close to their own family in kelantan...
or going to kelantan and try to cut off the distant??

and one more thing.... what would you chose?
going to penang cause there all wanna celebrate there (selfishly)....
or going to kelantan cause it is the turn for celebrate raye in kelantan???


and he can't even think of that!!!!

maybe she does not close with kelantan's family, but, does that mean we have to celebrate only there cause she the only one does not close with us???
So, what about us... we are also not really close with them... but we do try, right?? we do go for raye there first last year... so, what is their problem...

I CAN THINK OF ONE......
SELFISHNESS!!!

oh no!!!

hallu... practical almost over... anyway, i just got mail from my fren... she forward to me mail from my lecturer that said that whoever take mc or what-so-ever have to for the day we are mc's... and oh well.... good news... i have to replace.... wait... 1,2,3,4,5,6,7.... umh..... i forgot already..... it's ok... later i will count the day i take mc's.....hahahah.... what a mess.....so, instead of ending my practical on 21 sep... i will aybe end it on the end of sept.... it would be great u know...??? actually i really miss zoo negara.... if i can stay there forever it would be the best.... i think my passion towards animals is really... i mean really, really strong huh??? ....i guess i have to start thinking of my future.... cause now in my mind i just thinking of zoo... but, i noe i have to finish my study first... so... after all.... what am i going to do whit out any certificate? i have to finish my study first.... NO!!! i MUST finish my study first!!! yeah!!! way to go!!!! em... what to do after that??? em.... with God will.... i thinking of getting married after 2 or 3 years after working... but where will i work then??? that i my biggest question mark is!!!

oh no... i got date with my frends at 2... i have to got... i miss my blog... it is a long time since the last post i send.... and yes i have not tell what kind of surprise that we done for my oldest sister.!!!! i will write it down.... i know i will.... someday....

bubbye...!!!!

fever fever please go away...

it has been .... about..... a week.....if i'm not mistaken.... my fever wont go away.... my body is very weak right now....i have taken 4 days in a row of the week staying under my blanket.... maybe it is my stupidity hating to take medicine... even go to the clinic, i don't want to!!! i guess maybe i should see doctor tomorrow.. but i don't yet what time.. i'm working tomorrow.. if i didn't take MC, my lecturer probably will think that i'm not serious in doing my practical training... n this also will lead to probably my pointer for this semester affected..

K.LONG -surprise-!!!!

i'm sory..... i'm not in a gud mood to tell you story...... til my mood under renovation..... i'll not write anything....... bye...........-ora-

lost in time

erm.... today i just miss all of you:

i miss my old me....... i dunno where have i go.....i wanna go back today there is no pain, only happiness.....

still fresh in my mind the day we spend our time... studying, 'lepaking'...... just talking... with nothing bother us....... no work, no assignment, no presentation... no nothing..............

oupa..... i don't know what will happen with our family... such a big family but separate very far.......... never want it to happen but that is life... people always said that whatever happens... life must go on.... now i know it's easy to say than doing it......

Rya...... now u r one of kyrez that is far from all of our eyes but always near to our hearts...... u must be different than what i'm thinking now... i always picture you just like the last time we spend our time together... playing, laughing, gossiping.... u must be more mature now.... til the day we meet again......

precious moment in Kuching...... when can we do all of this again..... spending time together.... even now is hard to meet V.... although we are near in distance....... right V????

HAPPY BIDDAY K.LONG!!!!

"happy bidday to you!
happy bidday to you!
happy bidday to K.LONG!
happy bidday to you!"

p/ss: next time i will tell you what kind of surprise we all did to her!!!(^_^)

CongRaTuLaTion PaaN!!!

Congratulation!!!!!

This is what happened yesterday....

Yeah!!!! i'm off from zoo!!!! i have other plan for today..... Farhan(k.ancak fiance) convo is today!!! i'll follow k.ancak to his convo!!!! the ceromonies is really a new experience for me......


by the way i cannot say everything that happen yesterday... no specific details(i'm working right now)..... so... i'll show pictures of the day for all to view......

PICC (Putrajaya International Convention Center)

The Dato' say: "we should be pround with our......bla...bla...bla........."

and i say: "..........zZz.....zZz.......zZz......."

while waiting PaaN......Smile (^_^)

There he comes!!!! CONGRATULATION!!!!!! can't stop saying it.... congratulation!!!!!

by the way, know what??? pa is working yesterday.... no wonder he said like that!!!!!!

I guess i'm a person who make early conclusion.....!!! i should change that!!!! Never drew early conclusion again!!!

thats for now...... got to go....

MY mUddY DaY!!! (;_;)

I just cannot wait until tomorrow.... although all over,... today is a sad, muddy, emotional day.... but still, i cannot wait until tomorrow... i cannot keep it in my heart anymore.....

Today, ma is not in, only me, pa and nina....by the way, it is ok.... i can work with everyone..

by the way, today is the day.... almost 200 paxs of volunteers! as usual pa will handle it with nina...i have to stay at the office..... i just know it. if there is ma... it will be a worst day (boring)....

this is because, i realize since that day (ma told pa not to disturb me, coz i have got a lot of work to be done) pa have never really give me any work... any important responsibility..... i though he must take ma words seriously!!!! Yes, ma did said like that... but, that job i have done it way way long time ago..... i just don't understand why he doesn't wanna give it to me....??? did i done anything unnecessary thing??? did i do wrong? if yes??? what is it?? plez give chances to make it right again.....

So, while i was typing for my blog, k.sheena come and we have a chat... then she go... she volunteer as a photographer..... then pa and nina come back... i finish all my work.... i still didn't finish my binturong signage.....so i have to work it..... at ten pa ask me to have a break.....since k.sheena sms me to meet her at canteen, so i agreed and go to canteen for my break.

on my way to canteen i come across k.alia(if i'm not mistaken), she said that she need signages ready by 3 o'clock (quite urgent), so i told her to write it in the book, after my break i will make it and finish it.... then, we take our own way...

when i arrive at canteen.... it was very packed..... there are a lots of volunteers at the canteen having their break also.... so i didn't buy anything.... the queue is like forever.... i lost my appetite already by that time (cause by unstable emotion and forever long queue)! k.sheena give me half of her kit kat for me.... thank you.....(^_^)!!!

when i arrive at the office, i saw pa training nina to make the signage that k.alia ask me to do!!! i quite piss-off... but i kept it quite.Usually i will handle signage!!! i sat.... and pa didn't say anything to me... nothing to do....

i continue my binturong signage after nina finish the signage..... pa invited us to join talks on digital photography at 'panggung'...... i refuse to go cause i have binturong signage to be done..... so pa and nina left me alone..... than k.sheena come and transfer picture that she had taken for the day.... we have quite an emotional chat by this time.... i told her everything that i felt bout my relationship with pa and ma..... she agree with me.... we oth believe some how.... pa is trying to avoid me..... it is obvious.... (while we express our feelings, few times pa come in and out from the office) i thing pa know that we are talking bout him..... before k.sheena leave, she advise me to 'slow-talk' with pa.... i dunno whether i can do it.... cause i'm not that type of person......

anyway.... that short meeting have made me unstable for the day...... pa did call me.... he wants me and nine to go down to kancil hall to have our lunch break... again... i refuse... because we have plan to have lunch with zurin.... but i don't really hungry.... then zurin call and invited us for lunch at kancil hall..... so, i go down stair for a short break... i have no appetite at all..... we sat together(all practical student except farah, she off day)

after i finish my lunch.... ma call me and said she on her way to education office... she half day today... i was very happy by this time..... i wait ma downstair... when ma arrive we climb up the stair together.... we come across with pa at the door... he actually quite shock (i guess, coz his face change tremendously) when he saw ma......

however, ma still not fully recover.... she said that her son also sick...... by this time my second draft of binturong signage have been submitted for ma to check....(the first, pa check) pa and nina left us to take picture of kid's carnival event at picnic area.... i didn't go cause i wanna finish my binturong signage (i never leave until my work is properly done!) when i get permission to go to picnic area, quickly i go.... to meet them.... but when i arrive there, they are not there... i try to find them.... but i cannot find them anywhere.... so i sat at the table there and enjoy the music played..... but then, it is raining..... so i decided to go multi-animals show as it is almost 3 o'clock..

then i received sms from a saying that she have to go back home, her son is sick badly.... then nina come to me... was shock, why she is here??? she said pa at the office... i said ok..... then she sat among the crowd. i leave as the show start. and i came across pa again at the office door. he's going out. i'm going in. then he come back in. he wanted me to change binturong signage according to binturong signage picture that he and nina have taken after go to the picnic area. then he left.

as usual.... i will transfer all picture from the camera and save it in ma PC... it is basic thing to be done.... i saw my second draft binturong signage is not check by ma... after change the signage... i print draft and pa approve it. after finish my signage (plus laminate and stick double-sided tape), i have nothing to do....

then i heard pa ask nina to transfer picture from the camera (which i have done it)..... i don't understand.... he know i will make sure everything is done, right?? why he ask nina anyway??? he know how i do my work.... if there is volunteer, research, and practical student form, i will compile it in the file.... if i get the camera, i will transfer picture in ma computer, check the batteries... if need to be change, i will change.... then i will charge all batteries that is low in power...

all of it is basic... and usually i will done it everyday when i come to work....!!!!

he also ask nina to do memo...while i'm nt doing anything, and nina is busy faxing letter!!!!

i got very piss-off!!! i left the office and have a chat with handyman downstair...

then i go back to the office.... it ia almost 5.... nina is not in.... so i take the chance and said i'm sorry to him... he shock....for what... i said sorry if i accidently make he angry or anything wrong.... i told him that our relationship is not as before... he said it is ok.... there is up and down season... we are in down season (i think)... he said there is nothing happen.... maybe it just my feelings... nothing more... he admit that he thought that i'm busy with work assign by ma.... i told him not everytime i'm busy....he said that he will give me a lots of works tomorrow... i told him no need cause tomorrow is my off day.... i was going to explain to him more about our situation, but, when i wanna start explain to him... nina enter.... and we both stop talking again....

i realize that he in hurry like he wanna leave as fast as he can.... wanna go back home... not as usual....again....

he left me with nina.....

nina check our timetable and told me that she will be working with ma only tomorrow..... i stumble for a few second.... he said he will give me a lots of works tomorrow, but then, he also not going to be in like me tomorrow.... i felt weird..... really weird... why he said like that in the first place????

i just don't know what will happen after this... hope the best outcome from this.... there is a lot more that i wanna said to him...

that all for today..... full of emotion... i actually cried few times today... so long.... and gudnite all!!!!

SINCERELY,

ARORA

HaPPy BidDay AbAH-take too(2)!!!

owh..... let me continue what happen yesterday......

hehhe.. i actually used ma PC when pa and nina handle volunteer for the day..... they came back... that Y my story is 'hanging' without an end..... plez forgive me ya....???

well.... this is the story continue by me...........

k.fatanah finally arrived and we both go straight home......but..........we............hehhehe........ unfortunately taken the wrong way.... so we arrived home quite late......

OK! this is our preparation......

1. k.long will buy 'ayam golek'
2. me......cook rice
3. o.said prepare drinks
4. others - just make sure they are there(b.u. house) before mom and dad arrive!!!

p/s: sorry o.said....... i forgot to tell you bout our surprise party for dad..... thank God.... you eventually arrive just in time, just few minutes before mom and dad arrive....

and k.ancak...... bluf us by saying dad is coming.... but the truth is, o.said is actually arrived!!!!!

Naughty YOU!!!!

well the party go on quite well....

but, we all have know that dad know we are making a party for him!!! it's all becoz.... habib trustfully ask dad "abah, abib nak gi silat tak nak gi pegi majlis malam nie, bleh tak???"

(actually we all have mention about our secret surprise to him... and he innocently open it up widely!!!

HAHHAHAHHAHHA..... becoz of him, our surprise party is not a suprise anymore....

and some other reason that make it not a surprise anymore is:

1. dad know it is his BIRTHDAY...(for sure we will make a party!)
2. i does not wanna go home with him....he think there is something sneaky i wanna do, like buying present....(the truth is, i didn't even think to buy a present for him.....i do have a lot work by that time....!!!)
3. for sure, habib's innocence question!!!!
4. although we have hide our sandals and shoes........(a good thing) BUT, we all forgot to park our car far from home.....(bad thing)... and GUESS WHAT.... he recognize all of our family cars!!!!

well.... anyway.... dad is happy coz all of us gather at home for his memorable birthday!!!!

it's not easy for us to gather together...... only eiman and o.khalid are not in the party.

eiman at johor and o.khalid at kuantan....

during the party, muadz (k.long son) loudly said that o.said take k.long phone during k.ancak engagement.....(k.long phone is lost, and muadz remember that o.said take it from him....while the truth is o.said did even take it.....hahahha) Muadz keep saying the same phase "PAK TEH YANG AMIK HANDPHONE MAMA!!"

ANYWAY, all of it have turn out GOOD (^_^)!!!

that it for yesterday.... maybe there is some here and there i forgot to mention.... but, it is a memory, right...??? ta... gud nite....

Sincerely,

ORA (heheh my KYREZ name)

HaPPy BidDay AbAH!!!!

okey..... first of all plez give me chance to say what hapen yesterday at zoo.....
erm.... let me see....... owh... i remember.... yesterday morning.... my boss ( i will call her 'ma'....) is not in... becoz she still sick.... and my other boss (i will call him 'pa'....) have to handle a kindergarden that purchase our education packages....

p/s: Please don't think anything when i use the word 'ma' and 'pa' for my boss.... i just don't wanna them think i publicize them.... and more.... no one like their privacy being explore, right?

so, by the way... pa have to handle the kindergarden, while me have to make sure all of the things needed for the kindergarden (like their worksheet, animals out from exhibit for educational animals up close class, magicpens, boards, Orangutan soft toy and etc.....) is enough and ready for the day..... so, in order to make this thing works, i actaully have to go back and forth from education to Children World (place where the class is done).... bring all the things back to education when it is finish (but with help from the volunteer).... Thank you volunteer for the day........

since it was friday, our break is early... but i just 'tapau' coz i don't have friends to eat with (nina, zurin, fara off that day).... before i 'tapau', i have to done 3 things which is...... give memo to the Guard House, take e-mail letter from Ticket Counter, and meet with Customer Service for confirmation draft signage..... after all is done, then i go and pack my lunch......

after our break...., dasha(practical student) come and give us chocolate... since it is her last day at zoo as a practical student.... she give me Beryl's chocolate..... Thank You dasha!!!! You noe i will misses all of the practical student here!!!!!.......argh.......!!!!!!

then, it is time for me to be totally busy.... i have to make signage for tomorrow event..... which is Kid's Carnival!!!!! a lot of signage is ordered by Cuatomer Service...... But i manage to done all of it!!!!

Dad actually is waiting for me outside zoo for me... but since i'm busy, dad go hoe first.... so, i decided to go to brother house walking..... let me tell you ya..... when i on the road... i actually faster than the cars on the road.... heavy jam!!!! everyone wanna go back to their 'kampung', since it is SchoolHoliday!!!!

on my way, i decided to buy cake for dad(as a surprise!).... then i call k.fatanah.... (i didn't realize she sms me....) i tell her bout the plan... and she agree.... after i buy the cake.... i wait for k.fatanah to pick me up at Giant...!!!! while waiting..... i call all my brothers and sisters...(eiman,k.long,ancak,o.khalid) eiman and ancak forgot that that day is dad birthday....!!!!

i think i will

Time, so fast you leave me....

wow.... can you believe it....???
time does pass away fast...
lots have been forgotten and meanwhile that will never be forgotten....
oh well...... looks like i'll be back to sarawak again soon... well actually i do wanna go back there...but, at the same time i really don't want to.!!!!! part of my heart wanna stay here... and part of it wanna go there.. understand what i'm saying....???
it's have been..... erm.... i guess 2 month almost 3 month i have been doing my practical at Zoo Negara (the truth..... that is the best place ever)!!! i dont wanna leave zoo negara... y??? i also don't noe why!!!! but i think maybe because of my fragile heart love animal so soo sooo much.
there are a lots of memories there... i still remember when arapaima(it's a fish) died..... i cry...... i was very sad until i actually ..... cannot do any work at all.... i was suppose to handle volunteer (coz my boss have to take pic of the death arapaima) that morning.... but, at last i ask others to take my place.... hahahha... when i think about it again..... quite funny..... i don't really think i'm an emotional person.... maybe i do.... when it comes to animal.....
there is also time where both of my boss are not in (coz sick and annual leave)... only me and nina (another prctical student).... we have to survive for the day handling the works.... which is not easy to handle.....

1. we have to handle volunteer....
2. i have to make sure that tomorrow is going to be on schedule (since my boss sick (she lose her voice) so, she cannot handle a school trip that have book an education package...(suppose to be handle by me, but i have to take a day off)... so, i have to cancel the package, but still we will give a tour for them.... and nina is the person in charge for that... i just have to make sure that the train is book for them, the loud haler is taken from customer service and call the school and apologize......
3. make sure no problem occur for the whole day.....
   

actually there's a lot more.... pick up phone, make signages, and .....etc.......!
but, what i cannot forget on that day is when we going to take our break..... volunteer's teacher call us to be with them for the last time before they go back to their school.. they thanks us for accept them for day... they also give us souvenir on behalf of their school and we take pictures at the main entrance.... for the first time in my life i feel like a staff at zoo negara.... wow..... such a moment ya..... hahhaha......



today i stay home.... this is the day when my mom gone forever...(but still alive in my heart)
I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!
2.30 a.m. 14 august 2003
i still cannot forget the moment....
to make it even worst, my dad birthday is on the following day.. and my older sister birthaday also on the same month.(17th august)
there is more this year my 2nd sister decide to engage on 08.08.08..... beautiful....
i cannot forget all of these date.... can i?
i don't wanna remember all of these date.... if i can just make it go away....if i can.... i'll do....


it's not like i dont have mom.... my dad married 2 years after she pass away...
but whoever have lost a mom and got another one.... u noe what i meant right???
there is differences... although the new mom also have their own sons and daughters....
the differences will at always be there....


now, i'm think what happen at zoo? i so addicted to zoo until even when it was my off day i still miss zoo so much... like tomorrow never come.... hahahha..... funnie....the feeling is so strong, o noe?


(eiman,ora-me,vee)
part of kyrez on ancak engagement day 08.08.08!!!

vee, i'm sory... everytime we try to plan for a day for us together.... there will always other commitment taht we have to fulfill....maybe some other day ya....??


i miss my kyrez a lot.....
we all have been separate so far...
ora(me)- KL(off day on weekday)
vee-utm KL (holiday on weekend)
eiman-kuitho(johor)
myra-ums(sabah)
erika-australia(further study with her husband and coming child)
n
rya-cairo(further study in medic)

hope one day we all can meet again there in kelantan, che' house....

my first day doing it!!!

wow!!!! oh My gOd!!!!
plez believe me....
i dont know Y i'm doing thiz....
oh Y oh Y???
i think it will be a lot of fun ya.....
Kyrez!!!! feel free to view me ya...
mish u!!!!