Sunday, November 9, 2008
i have done my presentation and submit all forms and report... and now it turn for me to take my license..... hope i pass it with brilliant color.... hehehhe.....
i hope i can finish my story..... but, i guess it will take time... maybe when i have my own laptop or pc... maybe by then i can continue my story...
today , i'll go to kelantan... where i'll do my lisence.... grandma can't wait for me... i just got back on 7 nov... and now is 9 nov, i already have to go there.... plus, i also excited to go there...
by 19 nov i'll be transit back to kl for my brother wedding... then on 24 i'll go back to kelantan again, continue my lesson, then on 19 december i'll come back to kl again, for my sister and my brother wedding... fuh... lots of work to be done... i must get my license by the end of this year.... yeah......!!!!!! I mUsT!!!! GaMbAtE ne.......!!!!
now, i'm at my brother house.... waiting for my bus on 9.30 pm. Uncle sam will send me to the Hentian Putra bus station....
ow... by the way... muadz call me 'mama cha' now.... huhuhu.... like it....
Friday, October 17, 2008
i have this kind of things happen in my mind that i cannot really explain.... it happen slowly and then it develops into a big picture... its like a scene pass by another scene.... and from there it develops into a story... it is quite insane at a time when i thing of it.... but, maybe this the time to make a change... maybe the impossible can be possible if we try, right? So, however, i have start type it... but then i stop... coz i'm very tired... 4 hours i have been typing from 12 til 4.30 a.m.... hahhaa.... can u imagine... typing the impossible for 4 5 hours without stoping...??? typing as if it is really happen in my life... in real life....
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Answer : If i'm not mistaken.... on 2003 is the start of my Hell World.......... ok, i'm in form 3, i'm facing PMR by that time... but.... i'm not studying..... instead i'm doing something else..... since now is Oct 2008, so i bet on Oct 2003..... i'm loafing and enjoying my Hell World with my friends.....!!!!! that's the truth....!!!!
Question 2: What are the 5 things on your to-do list today?
1. Finish my report
2. Things to buy list
3. Prepare breakfast for dad
4. Clean the house
5. Prepare for my transfer to ancak's house
Question 3: What are the 5 snacks that you enjoy?
Answer : Okey..... truly i'm a health and food cautious person.... so basically i don't eat any junk food or snacks that i feel not good for my body......so here we go.....
1. Selected Cadbury chocolate....(maybe once in a month)
2. Pecal (vegetables that being boil for a while)
3. Fruits.....(a lot of it)
4. Yogurt.....( no added flavour)
5. Maggi asam laksa........ (also once in a month.... or when i think of it.... which is not everyday, but added with vegetables, eggs, meats, etc...)
Question 4: What are the 5 things that you would do if you were a billionaire?
Answer : we only can dream for the impossible..... so if the impossible become possible.... so this is my answer..........
1. Built a house for us Kyrez
2. Go for umrah and hajj
3. Built a house for dad
4. Go travel with my lovely husband......when i have one....hahha..
5. Truly i'm fanatic with Japan.... so i wanna built a house in Japan and meet with selected Japanese people (Gackt, Kame)
Question 5: What are the 5 jobs you've had?
Answer : Not work but studying but, done my practical... can it be count?
1. Education officer...(practical only)
2. Student.... it is the hardest job.....!
3. Waitress and chef in a restaurant......
4. PLKN....... don't even ask about it......
5. Decent daughter...........don't say anything....
OK...finally the 5 lucky people that hopefully will continue this tag:
Answer : em...... still new in this blog stuff..... so...,
1. Iman Elora
2. Viviana Vox
3. Erika Sofea
4. Rya Sophylea
Sunday, September 28, 2008
as for my memories with all the staff i have work with.... i got some of their picture taken on the last day.... the day before, ma give us souvenirs as a thank you for being with education department.... ma also give us special card... but... i will open it on the first raye....... some kind of surprise for me.... *wink*...
it is a big shock for all of us..... ma resign.... n me finish my practical.... both at the same day.... the date 27 september 2008 is a history for us..... i though she will be there till next month.... major shock to pa, obviously... who will be alone after nina finish her practical....
Ilia will be in few weeks before nina finish... and she have to learn extremely fast in order to catch up with education department works.. if not... the office will be up side down......Good luck to you ilia....
Friday, September 26, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
Right now.... all i can think is... 50/50....for me melor equal to "mama", and penang equal to "umi"..... the truth.... i will chose mama of course.......i wanna go to melor, but, at the same time, i dont wanna make him broken even more... i know i'm not the best daughter... even yet,... the worst daughter he have ever had!!! Doesn't have to denied it... and don't even try to make me feel better, cause i know who am i... and truly to change it is not easy... maybe people say he/she need something that can boost his/her enthusiasm to change... then, by then he/she will change.... Right now, i really don't know what to do.... if i go with them, then i'll be happy (maybe/maybe not), but, he will be sad....at the other side, if i go with him... them i'll be feeling like it's not fair to me and all....PLUS, i'm not really into the other side....(if u know what i mean...they don't even care about us...so why should i???) PLUSSS, i know if i go there, i will be doing thing that they dont even like... i know it would be only 3 days.... but for me 3 days of sacrifice and 3 days of happiness.... i think it would be better 3 days of sacrifice....
i know it would break all of their heart... but what can i do... V is correct.... if they cannot understand what you feel, i guess better we just kept it inside... PLUS, somehow i know this would be mama decision also....
till now, i still remember me n mama cooking... she cook the dishes, meanwhile i help her and i cook the vegetables.... a lot of vegetables... i remember... i will follow her wherever she go...
the first time in my life and it's so great
slowing down i look around and i'm so amazed
i think about the little thing that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling
this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it would stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i will hold on to it don't you let it pass you by....
i found a place so safe not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere...
i remember how i trying very hard not to accept that she have leave me forever.....
The days feel like years when i'm alone when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie is made up on your side
when you walk away i count the step that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?
When you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
the word i need to hear that always get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you.....
So, basically, YES, i haven't leave her... n i dont think i will....cause she mean a lot to me....
i know it would be very hard to just have 3 days of boredom there...when it suppose to be 3 days of joy with family....
i just dont understand both of them....actually i dont understand her!!! what does she put first and last?? and him also???? dont say u r happy when we all are sad???
yes u can't make everyone happy at the same time.... so why dont u try find an alternative for it??? we have give one of it...... why don't you even try to ask them??? and draw to conclusion easily???? you only think of yourself...... and he only think of her.... he does not think of us.... maybe you do think of us... but not totally....
i wanna ask which one is more important?? going to penang cause they does not relatively close to their own family in kelantan...
or going to kelantan and try to cut off the distant??
and one more thing.... what would you chose?
going to penang cause there all wanna celebrate there (selfishly)....
or going to kelantan cause it is the turn for celebrate raye in kelantan???
and he can't even think of that!!!!
maybe she does not close with kelantan's family, but, does that mean we have to celebrate only there cause she the only one does not close with us???
So, what about us... we are also not really close with them... but we do try, right?? we do go for raye there first last year... so, what is their problem...
I CAN THINK OF ONE......
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
oh no... i got date with my frends at 2... i have to got... i miss my blog... it is a long time since the last post i send.... and yes i have not tell what kind of surprise that we done for my oldest sister.!!!! i will write it down.... i know i will.... someday....
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
i miss my old me....... i dunno where have i go.....i wanna go back today there is no pain, only happiness.....
still fresh in my mind the day we spend our time... studying, 'lepaking'...... just talking... with nothing bother us....... no work, no assignment, no presentation... no nothing..............
oupa..... i don't know what will happen with our family... such a big family but separate very far.......... never want it to happen but that is life... people always said that whatever happens... life must go on.... now i know it's easy to say than doing it......
Rya...... now u r one of kyrez that is far from all of our eyes but always near to our hearts...... u must be different than what i'm thinking now... i always picture you just like the last time we spend our time together... playing, laughing, gossiping.... u must be more mature now.... til the day we meet again......
Monday, August 18, 2008
by the way i cannot say everything that happen yesterday... no specific details(i'm working right now)..... so... i'll show pictures of the day for all to view......
while waiting PaaN......Smile (^_^)
There he comes!!!! CONGRATULATION!!!!!! can't stop saying it.... congratulation!!!!!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
- k.long will buy 'ayam golek'
- me......cook rice
- o.said prepare drinks
- others - just make sure they are there(b.u. house) before mom and dad arrive!!!
p/s: sorry o.said....... i forgot to tell you bout our surprise party for dad..... thank God.... you eventually arrive just in time, just few minutes before mom and dad arrive....
and k.ancak...... bluf us by saying dad is coming.... but the truth is, o.said is actually arrived!!!!!
well the party go on quite well....
but, we all have know that dad know we are making a party for him!!! it's all becoz.... habib trustfully ask dad "abah, abib nak gi silat tak nak gi pegi majlis malam nie, bleh tak???"
(actually we all have mention about our secret surprise to him... and he innocently open it up widely!!!
HAHHAHAHHAHHA..... becoz of him, our surprise party is not a suprise anymore....
and some other reason that make it not a surprise anymore is:
- dad know it is his BIRTHDAY...(for sure we will make a party!)
- i does not wanna go home with him....he think there is something sneaky i wanna do, like buying present....(the truth is, i didn't even think to buy a present for him.....i do have a lot work by that time....!!!)
- for sure, habib's innocence question!!!!
- although we have hide our sandals and shoes........(a good thing) BUT, we all forgot to park our car far from home.....(bad thing)... and GUESS WHAT.... he recognize all of our family cars!!!!
well.... anyway.... dad is happy coz all of us gather at home for his memorable birthday!!!!
it's not easy for us to gather together...... only eiman and o.khalid are not in the party.
eiman at johor and o.khalid at kuantan....
during the party, muadz (k.long son) loudly said that o.said take k.long phone during k.ancak engagement.....(k.long phone is lost, and muadz remember that o.said take it from him....while the truth is o.said did even take it.....hahahha) Muadz keep saying the same phase "PAK TEH YANG AMIK HANDPHONE MAMA!!"
ANYWAY, all of it have turn out GOOD (^_^)!!!
that it for yesterday.... maybe there is some here and there i forgot to mention.... but, it is a memory, right...??? ta... gud nite....
ORA (heheh my KYREZ name)
erm.... let me see....... owh... i remember.... yesterday morning.... my boss ( i will call her 'ma'....) is not in... becoz she still sick.... and my other boss (i will call him 'pa'....) have to handle a kindergarden that purchase our education packages....
p/s: Please don't think anything when i use the word 'ma' and 'pa' for my boss.... i just don't wanna them think i publicize them.... and more.... no one like their privacy being explore, right?
so, by the way... pa have to handle the kindergarden, while me have to make sure all of the things needed for the kindergarden (like their worksheet, animals out from exhibit for educational animals up close class, magicpens, boards, Orangutan soft toy and etc.....) is enough and ready for the day..... so, in order to make this thing works, i actaully have to go back and forth from education to Children World (place where the class is done).... bring all the things back to education when it is finish (but with help from the volunteer).... Thank you volunteer for the day........
since it was friday, our break is early... but i just 'tapau' coz i don't have friends to eat with (nina, zurin, fara off that day).... before i 'tapau', i have to done 3 things which is...... give memo to the Guard House, take e-mail letter from Ticket Counter, and meet with Customer Service for confirmation draft signage..... after all is done, then i go and pack my lunch......
after our break...., dasha(practical student) come and give us chocolate... since it is her last day at zoo as a practical student.... she give me Beryl's chocolate..... Thank You dasha!!!! You noe i will misses all of the practical student here!!!!!.......argh.......!!!!!!
then, it is time for me to be totally busy.... i have to make signage for tomorrow event..... which is Kid's Carnival!!!!! a lot of signage is ordered by Cuatomer Service...... But i manage to done all of it!!!!
Dad actually is waiting for me outside zoo for me... but since i'm busy, dad go hoe first.... so, i decided to go to brother house walking..... let me tell you ya..... when i on the road... i actually faster than the cars on the road.... heavy jam!!!! everyone wanna go back to their 'kampung', since it is SchoolHoliday!!!!
on my way, i decided to buy cake for dad(as a surprise!).... then i call k.fatanah.... (i didn't realize she sms me....) i tell her bout the plan... and she agree.... after i buy the cake.... i wait for k.fatanah to pick me up at Giant...!!!! while waiting..... i call all my brothers and sisters...(eiman,k.long,ancak,o.khalid) eiman and ancak forgot that that day is dad birthday....!!!!
i think i will
Thursday, August 14, 2008
time does pass away fast...
lots have been forgotten and meanwhile that will never be forgotten....
oh well...... looks like i'll be back to sarawak again soon... well actually i do wanna go back there...but, at the same time i really don't want to.!!!!! part of my heart wanna stay here... and part of it wanna go there.. understand what i'm saying....???
it's have been..... erm.... i guess 2 month almost 3 month i have been doing my practical at Zoo Negara (the truth..... that is the best place ever)!!! i dont wanna leave zoo negara... y??? i also don't noe why!!!! but i think maybe because of my fragile heart love animal so soo sooo much.
there are a lots of memories there... i still remember when arapaima(it's a fish) died..... i cry...... i was very sad until i actually ..... cannot do any work at all.... i was suppose to handle volunteer (coz my boss have to take pic of the death arapaima) that morning.... but, at last i ask others to take my place.... hahahha... when i think about it again..... quite funny..... i don't really think i'm an emotional person.... maybe i do.... when it comes to animal.....
there is also time where both of my boss are not in (coz sick and annual leave)... only me and nina (another prctical student).... we have to survive for the day handling the works.... which is not easy to handle.....
- we have to handle volunteer....
- i have to make sure that tomorrow is going to be on schedule (since my boss sick (she lose her voice) so, she cannot handle a school trip that have book an education package...(suppose to be handle by me, but i have to take a day off)... so, i have to cancel the package, but still we will give a tour for them.... and nina is the person in charge for that... i just have to make sure that the train is book for them, the loud haler is taken from customer service and call the school and apologize......
- make sure no problem occur for the whole day.....
but, what i cannot forget on that day is when we going to take our break..... volunteer's teacher call us to be with them for the last time before they go back to their school.. they thanks us for accept them for day... they also give us souvenir on behalf of their school and we take pictures at the main entrance.... for the first time in my life i feel like a staff at zoo negara.... wow..... such a moment ya..... hahhaha......
today i stay home.... this is the day when my mom gone forever...(but still alive in my heart)
I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!
2.30 a.m. 14 august 2003
i still cannot forget the moment....
to make it even worst, my dad birthday is on the following day.. and my older sister birthaday also on the same month.(17th august)
there is more this year my 2nd sister decide to engage on 08.08.08..... beautiful....
i cannot forget all of these date.... can i?
i don't wanna remember all of these date.... if i can just make it go away....if i can.... i'll do....
it's not like i dont have mom.... my dad married 2 years after she pass away...
but whoever have lost a mom and got another one.... u noe what i meant right???
there is differences... although the new mom also have their own sons and daughters....
the differences will at always be there....
now, i'm think what happen at zoo? i so addicted to zoo until even when it was my off day i still miss zoo so much... like tomorrow never come.... hahahha..... funnie....the feeling is so strong, o noe?
part of kyrez on ancak engagement day 08.08.08!!!
vee, i'm sory... everytime we try to plan for a day for us together.... there will always other commitment taht we have to fulfill....maybe some other day ya....??
i miss my kyrez a lot.....
we all have been separate so far...
ora(me)- KL(off day on weekday)
vee-utm KL (holiday on weekend)
erika-australia(further study with her husband and coming child)
rya-cairo(further study in medic)
hope one day we all can meet again there in kelantan, che' house....
*ALL BOUT' A LADY*
When a LADY is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.
When a LADY is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.
When a LADY looks at you with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.
When a LADY answer "I'M FINE" after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine.
When a LADY stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.
When a LADY lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a LADY calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.
When a LADY sms's you everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.
When a LADY says "I LOVE YOU",
She means it.
When a LADY says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a LADY says "I MISS YOU",
No one in this world can miss you more than her....