So, please tell me.... what should i do?
Right now.... all i can think is... 50/50....for me melor equal to "mama", and penang equal to "umi"..... the truth.... i will chose mama of course.......i wanna go to melor, but, at the same time, i dont wanna make him broken even more... i know i'm not the best daughter... even yet,... the worst daughter he have ever had!!! Doesn't have to denied it... and don't even try to make me feel better, cause i know who am i... and truly to change it is not easy... maybe people say he/she need something that can boost his/her enthusiasm to change... then, by then he/she will change.... Right now, i really don't know what to do.... if i go with them, then i'll be happy (maybe/maybe not), but, he will be sad....at the other side, if i go with him... them i'll be feeling like it's not fair to me and all....PLUS, i'm not really into the other side....(if u know what i mean...they don't even care about us...so why should i???) PLUSSS, i know if i go there, i will be doing thing that they dont even like... i know it would be only 3 days.... but for me 3 days of sacrifice and 3 days of happiness.... i think it would be better 3 days of sacrifice....
i know it would break all of their heart... but what can i do... V is correct.... if they cannot understand what you feel, i guess better we just kept it inside... PLUS, somehow i know this would be mama decision also....
till now, i still remember me n mama cooking... she cook the dishes, meanwhile i help her and i cook the vegetables.... a lot of vegetables... i remember... i will follow her wherever she go...
Right now.... all i can think is... 50/50....for me melor equal to "mama", and penang equal to "umi"..... the truth.... i will chose mama of course.......i wanna go to melor, but, at the same time, i dont wanna make him broken even more... i know i'm not the best daughter... even yet,... the worst daughter he have ever had!!! Doesn't have to denied it... and don't even try to make me feel better, cause i know who am i... and truly to change it is not easy... maybe people say he/she need something that can boost his/her enthusiasm to change... then, by then he/she will change.... Right now, i really don't know what to do.... if i go with them, then i'll be happy (maybe/maybe not), but, he will be sad....at the other side, if i go with him... them i'll be feeling like it's not fair to me and all....PLUS, i'm not really into the other side....(if u know what i mean...they don't even care about us...so why should i???) PLUSSS, i know if i go there, i will be doing thing that they dont even like... i know it would be only 3 days.... but for me 3 days of sacrifice and 3 days of happiness.... i think it would be better 3 days of sacrifice....
i know it would break all of their heart... but what can i do... V is correct.... if they cannot understand what you feel, i guess better we just kept it inside... PLUS, somehow i know this would be mama decision also....
till now, i still remember me n mama cooking... she cook the dishes, meanwhile i help her and i cook the vegetables.... a lot of vegetables... i remember... i will follow her wherever she go...
Waking up i see that everything is ok
the first time in my life and it's so great
slowing down i look around and i'm so amazed
i think about the little thing that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling
this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it would stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i will hold on to it don't you let it pass you by....
i found a place so safe not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere...
The days feel like years when i'm alone when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie is made up on your side
when you walk away i count the step that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?
When you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
the word i need to hear that always get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you.....
So, basically, YES, i haven't leave her... n i dont think i will....cause she mean a lot to me....
i know it would be very hard to just have 3 days of boredom there...when it suppose to be 3 days of joy with family....
i just dont understand both of them....actually i dont understand her!!! what does she put first and last?? and him also???? dont say u r happy when we all are sad???
yes u can't make everyone happy at the same time.... so why dont u try find an alternative for it??? we have give one of it...... why don't you even try to ask them??? and draw to conclusion easily???? you only think of yourself...... and he only think of her.... he does not think of us.... maybe you do think of us... but not totally....
i wanna ask which one is more important?? going to penang cause they does not relatively close to their own family in kelantan...
or going to kelantan and try to cut off the distant??
and one more thing.... what would you chose?
going to penang cause there all wanna celebrate there (selfishly)....
or going to kelantan cause it is the turn for celebrate raye in kelantan???
and he can't even think of that!!!!
maybe she does not close with kelantan's family, but, does that mean we have to celebrate only there cause she the only one does not close with us???
So, what about us... we are also not really close with them... but we do try, right?? we do go for raye there first last year... so, what is their problem...
I CAN THINK OF ONE......
SELFISHNESS!!!
the first time in my life and it's so great
slowing down i look around and i'm so amazed
i think about the little thing that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling
this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it would stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i will hold on to it don't you let it pass you by....
i found a place so safe not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere...
i also still remember the time before she go away, far from me...
i remember how i trying very hard not to accept that she have leave me forever.....
i remember how i trying very hard not to accept that she have leave me forever.....
The days feel like years when i'm alone when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie is made up on your side
when you walk away i count the step that you take
do you see how much i need you right now?
When you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
the word i need to hear that always get me through the day
and make it ok
i miss you.....
So, basically, YES, i haven't leave her... n i dont think i will....cause she mean a lot to me....
i know it would be very hard to just have 3 days of boredom there...when it suppose to be 3 days of joy with family....
i just dont understand both of them....actually i dont understand her!!! what does she put first and last?? and him also???? dont say u r happy when we all are sad???
yes u can't make everyone happy at the same time.... so why dont u try find an alternative for it??? we have give one of it...... why don't you even try to ask them??? and draw to conclusion easily???? you only think of yourself...... and he only think of her.... he does not think of us.... maybe you do think of us... but not totally....
i wanna ask which one is more important?? going to penang cause they does not relatively close to their own family in kelantan...
or going to kelantan and try to cut off the distant??
and one more thing.... what would you chose?
going to penang cause there all wanna celebrate there (selfishly)....
or going to kelantan cause it is the turn for celebrate raye in kelantan???
and he can't even think of that!!!!
maybe she does not close with kelantan's family, but, does that mean we have to celebrate only there cause she the only one does not close with us???
So, what about us... we are also not really close with them... but we do try, right?? we do go for raye there first last year... so, what is their problem...
I CAN THINK OF ONE......
SELFISHNESS!!!
1 comment:
haiyoOoo full with love loo..
hm true!selfishness..but then again i'm fine to be in boredom as long as i'm under abah's armpit hehe "anak kesayangan ker??" no la..it's just that i'm happy to see him happy, eventhough i have to sacrifice my time there. my friend once said "if things are not ok, easy! make it be ok" well it's also true loo..i'll make it OKAY for me then..^-^
"you will not be working with everyone you like or as crazy as you are" (my beloved lecturer once quote_thanks Dr Wan!) so, i'm used to the "jump" in with everyone once "weird" for me..so now they are all loOking very normal to me kui3..well life are not always be what you want it to be, deal with it because
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. dia mendapat pahala dari kebajikan yang dikerjakannya dan dia mendapat siksa dari kejahatan yang diperbuatnya. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau menghukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami melakukan kesalahan. Ya Tuhan kami janganlah Engkau bebani kami dengan beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tidak sanggup kami memikulnya. maafkanlah kami, ampunilah kami, dan rehmatilah kami. Engkaulah pelindung kami, maka tolonglah kami menghadapi orang-orang kafir."
we can control our mind setting, set things correctly as HE wish for us to be..(asma' quote^_^)
wallahua'lam bisawab
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